Confusing in mind

So many opportunity that I passed by. . .Everything cz all people that I love'.

So many...So many...A lot for them all
But they said like I never do something best for them, Until I never ask to my self *how about my feeling?*

Allah...Please give a way to hold me from my sadness. Let I give my sincere n my shiny to them all... That I must leave all what I dreamed ? One by one them going to far n leave me here lonely.

"F*****r : Go out here ! And never back, and never call me your f*****r again cz I never have daughter now !"

"M*****r : It's up to you now. I didn't have anything to help you reach what you want, be realizing...Let do like what I want, and never go out_staying here forever. Never see your dream like dreaming, you didn't have anything more able."

"B*g Bro : See our lilbro's future. Let we make he finish his school... Take some work to make your finance well."

"L*l Bro : You are very lucky, not like me...They never care me !"

All say full of presure. Make me depress n can't control my feeling. *That they said I must do ? Leave all I dreamed... N be like they need n they want*

Thanks for everything thatworst n best you give to me Allah. I need you, Please caring all people that I love much...

Now I just stuck, How I must do now ? Still with my dream or Do that they dream...