This is my first article about my son who is in the baby.
He was only reached 17weeks 2days (same as 19weeks 2days by SpOG doctor).. Increased day my stomach getting bigger and is amazed me, I'm happy about it.

First I check the baby.. Thankful I got the gift of Allah SWT, to get the best SpOG doctor. He gave me a couple of questions that taught me to be wise to treat the baby in the baby.

Viewing 2D and 4D ultrasound, felt my heart beating amazed that Allah SWT's incredible to me unfortunately. My baby is healthy.. with the brain capacity of a perfect 70%. Although at first I thought my baby girl, and the fact the baby actually gets boy, I'm still happy. Allah SWT had a purpose of providing a baby boy for me. I hope my baby is always healthy and developing well..

For the future I also hope that someday he will be a wise, noble, honest and clever, love family, love of Allah SWT the creator..(amin.)
And although so far I have not found a good name for him, I tried to talk to him with my heart. May onetime Allah SWT give guidance best name for my baby boy.. 

 

"Although I've never felt being in a family full of love and happiness.. I will continue to learn how to give love and happiness to the baby, so he grew up to be a best boy like in my prayers. -Me*myself"

Almost a year time goes by.. But grief and pain in my heart is still flowing.

"Ya Allah.. What do you want from me? What should I do? That you always hear my words from there?"

Now on my mind, I can only praying for her happiness. Only feeling happy for her happiness.. Although up to now she is still telling more bad about me to her friends, and our big-family.

Is that the way she loves me? As the only one her daughter...

I still love you here and miss you in my every time, although you will be late to know..

"Ma, with all my love.. I forgive all of your mistake. In fact, no reason for me.. Just you are the only one mother who made me born into this world. Love you Ma.."